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AWAL

I know I've been AWAL lately and I'm so sorry! There have just been so many things going on. I've been doing a lot of physio and rehab to try and get me to placement in one piece. Plus, exams were really stressful! Now I'm on holidays for 2 weeks and then its placement so I promise I'll be more active! I know I said that last time but I mean it this time :)

Tomorrow I'm off to a theme park with my best friend. I'm very nervous as I won't have my crutches and will have to walk everywhere, however it'll be a good test for work. I still haven't gone back to work and need to talk to my physio about in on Thursday. They want me back and I really feel I should go back because I figure my ankle is probably going to hurt for a long time, therefore I should just go back. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to go back, but I know I really need to. I need the money and I can't afford for them to fire me. The thought of going back though makes me very anxious because of the pain it will cause. I feel like I should just go back and not tell the physio, but that wouldn't end very well and I'm sure she'd find out eventually. By anxiety has been sky high lately. With exams, the thought of going back to work, placement, exam results etc. I've just become the constantly anxious person. I had to go to a group physio session yesterday and by the time I got there I was nearly throwing up and passing out because I was so nervous! I really need to see/tell someone about it.

Anyway! Off to rest before a big day tomorrow.

BB :)
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