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Sorry for being so MIA recently, a lot has been happening! My wonderful friend Potato came out of her surgery obviously feeling a bit battered but it was successful, which is such a relief for everyone! I've passed my 3rd week with a fractured ankle, going back for my x-ray and follow-up appointment last Monday, which was alright, apart from the fact that my surgeon thinks I'm crazy! Guess I hate doctors that know nothing about hypermobility and the non-musculoskeletal impact of it! I've been feeling quite down and sad recently, I guess I just feel like nothing is going right in my life at the moment. Yesterday I got some pretty awful news, which eventually I will be able to say, but just for the moment I can't. So I was pretty upset yesterday when I got home from university. To top it all off I haven't slept since I did my ankle and it's really beginning to get to me.

It's time to talk to someone about everything, I know that, but I just need the push. I don't know how to talk to my parents about it, but they have a psychologist at my physio and I was thinking about going there because she does have some background in chronic pain. Potato also suggested that I talk to the psychologist from our pain management program and ask her for some recommendations. For some reason I just can't bring myself to do it! I know that she gave my parents a list of people in my area that might be able to help, but I don't know where it is and I don't know how to ask my mum where it is. I know I'm going to have to either email the psychologist and ask or ask my parents I just need to get up the courage first.

On the plus side, the surgeon said that next week I might be able to take off my boot to slepe, which probably won't happen, however it means that I'll be able to go back to physio. So I booked myself an appointment for next week and I don't think I'll actually end up doing any physio, probably just talking for the entire half hour, but maybe then I can bring up the psychologist thing. In reality, I think that I need someone to tell me I should, so if my physio suggested it, I think it would happen. It's just hard to admit you need help, which I do.

Ahh oh well! I'm off to uni now for the morning, whilst my mum goes in to have day surgery. I'm so tired, but I got a little more sleep last night so everything is a bit better.

BB :)

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