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I don't know what to do

Why? Why did I say I could go on a holiday the day after my appointment?

I dream about this appointment now. I'm that nervous.

I still don't know how to tell mum I don't want her in there with me.

I think it'll break her heart.

Again just random, probably drugs (that do not work) induced.

BB :)
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