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30 things about me

So recently I've been seeing a lot of these 30 things about me and my chronic illness on instagram and I thought... why not? Everything has changed so much over the past 2 and a half years in my life and I thought why not document it?



Things have been pretty hectic recently with illness and everything. It's been very overwhelming as I'm still waiting for a diagnosis but having more flare ups and experiencing more symptoms. I had a serious flare up the other night that woke me up at 2am thinking I was dreaming. I ended up sleeping with my mum in the spare room. I cried myself to sleep. I don't ever remember being in that much pain before in my entire life, but maybe it was just because it was so late. I guess I have something else to tell my physio. She probably thinks I'm insane as I swear every week I come back with something else that has happened. Is this just the way my life is going to be now. That night was a very low moment for me. I usually never cry over my pain or illness but there I was sobbing in bed with my mum. I guess everything just really hit me.

Anyway, now for day one of the 30 day chronic illness challenge.

DAY 1: My name is Bella and I have chronic migraines, chronic vestibular migraines, chronic daily headaches, chronic elbow pain, chronic hip pain, an ever growing list of food and drug allergies. I have allergies, asthma and eczema my whole life, chronic migraines for 2 and a half years, chronic elbow pain for 1 year and chronic hip pain for 4 months. However they think that they might all be linked to Ehlers Danlos Syndrome Type Hypermobility or Joint Hypermobility Syndrome. So yay! Potential diagnosis!

BB :)

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